DANG... why is david beckham so fine

just was surfing through the web and happened to stroll over this pic of david beckham... hmmm hmm good lol

Mind of la Carter

this has been on my mind




and this....


cause you know how i love a good throwback synth.

and i want some of these....
american apparel opaque over the knee socks in black



so i can attempt something like this because i don't know how to dress for winter....





knee socks make me thing of Lolita.



and i was thinking of how good this shit sounds.

and yes, that is a damn washboard. original below.





and i was feeling this too...




but that original still makes my juice box happy. the young bobby brown could get it!

and yes, juice box is what the kids are now using for vagina.

Songs and shiz

i like that new michael jackson song. that this is it song. really i do, so i'm gonna post that shit and then have a little giggle.



it makes me warm and fuzzy inside.


so i've been listening to random songs lately and i'm gonna post them all cause i can't sleep, i'm all wired from the twizzler, now and later, and cigarette diet i've been on lately. i heard this when i went and and straight up viking-ed my sister's house. yeah i rolled up in that bitch and demanded she feed me. then we went grocery shopping and talked paint for her guest room/work out room/office and as we were driving she pulled out one of her notorious mixes, this one from 2005 and this little gem was on there.




i heard this on my way home from my communications class and because i'm lame like that i sang at the top of my lungs because anything on 80's synthesizer blows my fucking mind. i couldn't find a decent enough video where they do the dance so you'll just have to settle for the jay and silent bob homage.




then i heard this when i was in northlake mall and i sang and tna told me i sounded horrible. she can suck my gaga.



i just remembered that i kinda still wanna be sade when i grow up.


i swear i have one more. this one makes me kinda happy/sad. like i want to strip down to my undergarments with my lover and jump into a pool late at night lit on cheap wine the morning before he has to leave. and i actually love him enough that it pains me he's leaving and we spend the night splashing around and making love and laughing; trying to make the best of it.... i'm fucking pathetic sometimes. :)




okay fuck you, i lied. one more.

where tha hoez at?

Our generation of females continue having me SMH.
It rather saddens me and almost upsets me to see them have idols such as Nicki Minaj. Why would you look up to someone like this??


And then what kills me, is how girls are all of a sudden "bi-sexual".

• we know you are doing this for attention.
• we know you want to be like Nicki Minaj.
• we know your mother raised you better than that.
• and we know when it comes down to it, you'd rather have some dick.

SMH...girls..this is NOT cute, and boys no longer think its "hott" to see some chick on chick action anymore because EVERY GIRL IS GAY NOW.

It used to be "daaaammnn, you like girls too?!?! ayeee."
NOW ITS
"damnit, you like girls too? sigh"

Another thing about you 'ladies' (so you call yourselves) that also kills me, is how you get so angry when somebody calls you a whore/slut/hoe/skank..etc. KNOWING

• you just sent a few dudes some revealing pictures of yourself.
• you just told about 2 guys everything you 'want to do to him'.
• and then you have the nerve to post a picture on facebook/myspace in just your bra and panties.

1. That is totally inappropriate.
2. It shows you have zero respect for yourself.
3. Facebook and myspace pictures go further than you think.
4. And I KNOW you read this before posting pictures up.

hmmm...if it looks like a slut, talks like a slut, and smells like a slut. Then its probably a slut. (Keep that in mind next time you want to take a sexy picture) *cough cough* MILEY CYRUS.

LMFAO!!!!!!!

Anyway, back to Nicki Minaj. I don't want to talk down on her or anything like that. She actually is a very beautiful girl, but some of her lyrics are just ugly. I just wish teen girls would realize walking around chanting, "I'm the baddest, my pussy's the phattest" is not all that flattering.

And since when did being a 'bad bitch' become such a great thing? Where I'm from and how I was raised, somebody would rather eat dirt before calling a lady a bitch. SMH...I ask myself this question almost everyday. WHAT IS THE WORLD COMING TO?

I live in a world of fantasy, because reality always seems to be a bitch. From this day on, I will always "see what I want and want what I see".

........I just wish what he wanted was me :(

Still Time

If I were invincible, and the clock were to stop ticking and the world stop spinning
My heart would be fearless and my soul would be grinning.

My emotions would run wild and all I could do is smile.
I'd make this unpredictable time worthwhile.

I would travel the world and chase after my dreams
And time couldn't stop me as I soar on eagle's wings.

I'd make music with the wind and dance with the trees
I'd climb every mountain and sail across the seas.

But when my journey came to an end, something was missing.
There was something I was forgetting.

As I chased my dreams and found all I could find
I realized out of my adventure, I'd left someone behind.

Someone that would soar with me and also make me smile
Someone that would encourage me to go that extra mile.

Someone who I'm in love with, and someone I can trust
Someone who has dreams too, and loves me just as much.

So as I go back in still time, I grab the hand of my soulmate, the 'someone I've left behind'
And I do it all over again, happy to know I didn't waste time.

-Rae Dean

Love vs. Lust

like good vs. evil, love vs. lust has been around since the beginning. some people actually believe in love at first sight, but is it even real?or is that really just lust? you want that person not because of who they are but what they are; a person with looks that turn you on in some sort of way. because love, when it's really done right has so many fucking layers. like no matter what that person does you still love them. you still want to be around them even if they're bitchy or fat or didn't feel like putting on makeup or brushing their hair. you love them when they disagree with you. you love them when they do those annoying things like self-deprecate or pick their teeth or are dressed like a bum because they don't care what they look like. it's this unconditional love that stems from really getting to know someone. yes, there is some magical element to really getting to know someone especially with everyone bullshitting and being who they want to be instead of who they are, but i still have some modicum of belief in love. I acknowledge the difficulty in it, so i don't go hunting for it. now lust...

lust is pretty much this rush of something warm and urgent and there is a comfort in that. like if i take these shots i will feel this rush, this tingling sensation that will be gone when i say it's gone. it's what lust is all about and when it's returned by the object of said lust it's like this insane magnetism so much like love, but so much lighter due to its lack of substance and sustainability. you can actually feel this sort of synthetic love and it's not so bad. the important thing is to remember it's faux.

sometimes the round just goes to Lust.

Unknown You

I miss you, I need you, I want only you.

Take my hand, and we can make it through.

Touch me the way lovers do.

I am searching for the real thing,

But make me feel unreal feelings.

Give my heart a miracle healing.

With you is where I want to be.

Come and run away with me.

Live, Love, and see what I see.

We can live what I've dreamed of.

Eachother is what we can love.

No more being afraid, when push comes to shove.

You are all I think about when I have a moment to myself.

You make me feel feelings I have never felt.

I miss you, I need you, I want only you.

I'm sick of waiting and wondering "who"

I miss you, I need you, I wish I would meet you.

i smell sex and candy

Scarred and Worn

Carter: i have a gross pimple and i want to hide under a rock; except i can't. going to see my maaaan lol!

Ay Rae Rae: SMH...i could play connect the dots with my face. but i dont give a FUCK. well...maybe just a little. *sigh*


so we spent an ungodly amount of time trying to create this blog and for a treat we gorged our selves on a little piece of fatty heaven known as Cook out. yes, we cheated; but at two weeks to halloween we don't really give a fuck.