Being. Freely. In Love.

Well, I've fallen. I'm a sucker. For Love. In Love. And it feels AMAZING.

EVEN THOUGH....sometimes..

I doubt. I worry. I panic. I'm jealous. I'm scared. I'm insecure. I'm discouraged. I'm bothered. I'm apprehensive. I'm distressed. I'm fretful...I'm human.
But he takes my hand and temporarily erases the negativity as he's in my presence and fills my mind, heart, and soul with a profound, tender, yet intense feeling. This feeling is LOVE. PURE LOVE. Forgetting I had doubts. Forgetting I worried if he loved me back. Forgetting that I panicked I'd never see him again. Forgetting the jealousy of the meaningless creatures around....
I forgot I was scared to even love again. I forgot about all my insecurities. I forgot I was discouraged and again had hope. I was no longer bothered by my feelings and wanted to be bothered. I was no longer apprehensive but anxious for our next move. My distress and fret left and I began to feel free. I was no longer a human being. <--- To be stopped. I was a human being... <--- to keep being. I was being in love. Being his love. Being because he made me be. He made me free.

I LOVE you, Julian Dixon.


<3 Rae

Cee Lo Green - FUCK YOU

Kate Nash - Nicest Thing (Animation)

i.love.this.song.

Moment 4 Life? Not Quite

My moments for life are usually in my dreams...

That's where 'I fly with the stars in the skies and no longer try to survive.' Meanwhile, every moment I'm awake, I'm still usually stuck dreaming. So in reality, my mind never seems to be in tune with what's currently occurring in my life. I'm either daydreaming, wishing, or dreaming,...wondering when will I rise. When will my heart build up a passion to LIVE. When will my soul want to be ALIVE. I want to have a moment for life, then take a moment and celebrate my moment for life. I'd throw my hands to the sky and run.[For my life]. And I'd do it with my eyes closed just to prove I beat my dreams. But in the meantime, I'll just wait...for the time I begin to rise...for the time my moment of life arrives...
I'll just sit here and wait unalive

Is It So Much To Ask?

Is it so much to ask...
For you to love me like I love you
Is it so much to ask...
To not play me as a fool
Is it so much to ask...
You to kiss me under the moonlight
Is it so much to ask...
Me is everything alright and hold me through the night
Is it so much to ask...
For you to listen to my dreams
Is it so much to ask...
To occasionally treat me like a Queen

I don't ask for much...
I just want your love.

Mary J. Blige - I'm Goin' Down

I just love this song. Not for any particular reason...I've just always loved Mary's voice and she KILLED this song. Sometimes I feel the need to take myself back and listen to some REAL music. Lately, I've been getting a little too used to this nonsense these so called "artists" have come up with these days. Currently listening to this on repeat....

Dog Days Are Over

If my dog days were over...
I'd kiss a midget and tell him I loved him.
I'd climb the highest mountain and dance 'til my feet went numb.
I'd dress up everyday just for the hell of it.
I'd move to another state with no plans on how I'd survive.
I'd smoke my cigarettes out of a gold cigarette holder.
I'd hop on a train and make friends with the engineer.
I'd fly to Paris and sit on top of the Eiffel Tower and dream.
I'd buy a chimpanzee and call her Zoey.
I'd finally look myself in the mirror and smile...
If my dog days were over.