say it right

i'm really gullible sometimes... on a lighter note this song is dope, but raise you're hand if the first thing you think of is hilary duff's version...

Pretty Pistols Tatted Up

From this day forth, nobody can tell me what I cannot do.
Because today, I took pain like a straight up gangster. a thug. a mutherfuckin "G".
Stephanie and I got tatted the fuck up. And I say tatted 'the fuck up' because we definately went harder on this tattoo than any other. We chiefed a marlboro smooth, sat for about an hour in that black leather chair, and spent big bucks that were totally worth it.
*high fives Stephanie*...
This bitch got her whole side tatted. A japanese flower that looks AMAZING and fits her cute little body perfectly. And yes, she took hers like a "G" as well.



Me on the other hand, will have to maneuver with a stiff neck for about a day or two, but I'm totally fine with it because I am in love with my new tattoo just as much as I'm in love with Stephanie's. This is why I have a stiff neck..


because I sat like this for practically an eternity.
*pats myself on the back, then curtseys to all you haters*

Here is my end result:


"The fruit of the righteous is a tree of life" Proverbs 11:30a

We even kinda sorta hopefully inspired Christina to get a tattoo even though she "doesn't believe in them" :)

But you know what..this is what I want to tell you, Christina..
You want to know what a tattoo feels like??

This is the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the damn truth.

A little piece of musical Valium

sometimes i feel like some big lumbering ugly chik named Bertha or some other name that's only issued to cows or people born before the fifties. sometimes i want to just scream cause i'm so angry and sometimes i feel like being very quiet. I'm like this little tornado with not enough wind and i just don't know what to do. i was driving to this hole in the wall club Rae's always ending up in and since i'm usually with her i end up too. i'm listening to NPR like i do when i'm by myself and lost or feel like i could possibly get lost since i'm a horrible driver,because the voices are like this serene ocean to me and plus it reminds me of when i was a little kid and daddy would drive us to school in the morning and we'd listen to All Things Considered . like i'm just this little kid and i'm doing what i should be doing and i'll be safe cause my dad's driving. so i'm listening and their doing World Cafe and this song comes on and it literally makes my soul chill out and i imagine this is what it must feel like when you just know everything is taken care of and you can just rest easy. like my idyllic little life in moreno valley, california when i was little and we had plum trees, and grapes, and peaches. and i thought it was romantic and i swooned and wanted to disappear for a second and just be happy like i used to be when i was a little kid... cause i was this really happy little kid. just really fucking happy. ALL the time and i'd sing and shout and snuggle up to people and when family members see me again they just look at me and go "who the fuck's this". and i really couldn't tell them...


later i found out that the song is hardly romantic but mostly about alcohol and some chik with syrup lips and his drunken dependency on her....
and people wonder why i'm cynical.

NO CEILINGS

okay..so my goon side had to post this mixtape...that I listen to everyday.
*looks off into space*


don't be mad at me guys. but DON'T act like ya'll don't be rite there with me jammin' in my backseat to this garbage.
*cough cough* ---> STEPHANIE!

a little of this and a little of that

my love affair with robin thicke grows stronger each day. his song with Gossip Girl's leighton meester is the shiz. its her debut song for her new album, but he sings circles around her which speaks volumes. makes me think i can come out with something.

seriously though, i was like shouting "Get off him" through out out most of it and it still sounded good.

i heard this song on my way to God knows where and why and chick, Kasha, sounded like a mix between nicki minaj, kid sister, and those dudes in bands, that i believe are just 90s boy bands for the 00s, that believe they pass as alternative, or dare i say it, punk. yes, this kasha uses a foreign dialect that acts such as Hellogoodbye and Yellowcard seem to also use. i may get clowned, by the pistols for this ish, but i was def sucked in and didn't exactly turn the dial. Ahhh, the slow but inevitable death of radio and our generation....

plus this bitch must be young cause why would you get with a dude that looked like mick jagger. bitch do you know who that is? could you wake up to this shiz every morning. rock royalty or not. damn, i guess I'd have to brush my teeth with jack too.


...on second thought maybe back in the day jagger.
but then there's Beyonce's video with Gaga... Beyonce is stunning as usual. Love the betty paige-esque makeup; she looks like a doll. she's all basic bad-ass Beyonce all gangsta and shiz. now Gaga *sigh* her vocals sound good and umm, uh, yeah, her vocals sounded beautiful.


Gaga-aye, why didn't you hire the gay who did you up here?


oh and gaga, uh, hello opening scene from my jump off Clockwork Orange. don't act like i didn't catch that, chik. Compare done below by speeding up to 1: 23, sorry it's in french, but damn if it isn't sexy as fuck. je'taime, sexy sounding dub person.

Ah, the new shakira video. she is the hispanic beyonce, i died at 2:42 til 2:50. that dance is genius and i know B, or Sasha, was like damn and gave her choreographer a eye roll and a teeth suck.

ECHO

So I'm just sitting here babysitting, and thinking, and wondering..the usual.
Babysitting the 2 most adorable kids ever. Thinking about wtf I'm doing with my life. And wondering who's guna be the most perfectest guy to give me some lovin' to this amazing song by R.Kelly..

This song is definately a classic, and whoever disagrees is most certainly a douche and has zero taste in music.

I'm also sitting here thinking about my life. My circle of dudes. And my friends.
I'm happy with my life and where I stand in life right now, but there are still some things I'd like to get done and change.
FIRST..I'd LOVE to lose the 20 pounds I've been saying I'm guna lose for the past like 3 years. and SECOND..I'd like to work on my relationship with the Lord and be on fire for God like I used to be. I've really been slacking lately and catch myself going through the whole day without even speaking to God and at least thanking Him for letting me see another day. *sigh*..but idk..it's strange. A part of me just doesn't feel like my heart is in it. hmmm...
Well THIRD..I kinda want a frikin' boyfriend already! ugh! I want to be loved again. I want to go on cute dates. And I want to prove to a dude that I can be the most amazing girlfriend ever. Since according to my ex boyfriend, I was definately the worst. smh..

MY CIRCLE OF DUDES..
Oh where do I begin. Well, to be honest, I'm kinda torn between two. It was three, but the third dude fucked up last nite so he's been deaded. LOL
So..I'm left with a scrawny little dude who I really like and just met a couple months ago and a guy that I've liked for a while but I must be a loser girl because I don't believe he likes me back. Well, now he's kinda showing he does..but he might just be tryin to get it in. And that's not anywhere near what I want. Well...i do. LOL but not JUST that. sigh..decisions, decisions.

MY FRIENDS..
I love them dearly. My pretty pistols are my family and my ride or dies. I'm so thankful to have such amazing friends. I would do anything for them and know they would do the same for me. It kinda sux tho b/c I feel as if my sister should be my best friend. But our relationship has slowly but surely...um..DIED.
sad story..but oh well. A best friend is someone you can trust, and I most certainly have lost all of my trust in my sister.

Well, life goes on. Mistakes are made. Feelings are hurt. And we should all just go eat dirt. right?..NO. That was a joke. I just wanted something to rhyme because I knew it would sound cool. FAIL..i know. shutup.
But I'm guessing I should feed these kids now because they have asked for their chicken nuggets about 100 times. One has taken a shit in his diaper and smells like rotten zombies. And one is whining because I won't let him color with markers.
They are still the most adorable kids ever tho.

So I feel happy now because I haven't blogged in a while, and I should definately earn my brownies for this.
yay me! boo you. I'm outie til next time bitches :) <---LAME.

Marry Me, Trey??

Why could'nt I have been the girl in this video!?! Gah!
He went hard on this video though and I'm frikin' in L.O.V.E