ECHO

So I'm just sitting here babysitting, and thinking, and wondering..the usual.
Babysitting the 2 most adorable kids ever. Thinking about wtf I'm doing with my life. And wondering who's guna be the most perfectest guy to give me some lovin' to this amazing song by R.Kelly..

This song is definately a classic, and whoever disagrees is most certainly a douche and has zero taste in music.

I'm also sitting here thinking about my life. My circle of dudes. And my friends.
I'm happy with my life and where I stand in life right now, but there are still some things I'd like to get done and change.
FIRST..I'd LOVE to lose the 20 pounds I've been saying I'm guna lose for the past like 3 years. and SECOND..I'd like to work on my relationship with the Lord and be on fire for God like I used to be. I've really been slacking lately and catch myself going through the whole day without even speaking to God and at least thanking Him for letting me see another day. *sigh*..but idk..it's strange. A part of me just doesn't feel like my heart is in it. hmmm...
Well THIRD..I kinda want a frikin' boyfriend already! ugh! I want to be loved again. I want to go on cute dates. And I want to prove to a dude that I can be the most amazing girlfriend ever. Since according to my ex boyfriend, I was definately the worst. smh..

MY CIRCLE OF DUDES..
Oh where do I begin. Well, to be honest, I'm kinda torn between two. It was three, but the third dude fucked up last nite so he's been deaded. LOL
So..I'm left with a scrawny little dude who I really like and just met a couple months ago and a guy that I've liked for a while but I must be a loser girl because I don't believe he likes me back. Well, now he's kinda showing he does..but he might just be tryin to get it in. And that's not anywhere near what I want. Well...i do. LOL but not JUST that. sigh..decisions, decisions.

MY FRIENDS..
I love them dearly. My pretty pistols are my family and my ride or dies. I'm so thankful to have such amazing friends. I would do anything for them and know they would do the same for me. It kinda sux tho b/c I feel as if my sister should be my best friend. But our relationship has slowly but surely...um..DIED.
sad story..but oh well. A best friend is someone you can trust, and I most certainly have lost all of my trust in my sister.

Well, life goes on. Mistakes are made. Feelings are hurt. And we should all just go eat dirt. right?..NO. That was a joke. I just wanted something to rhyme because I knew it would sound cool. FAIL..i know. shutup.
But I'm guessing I should feed these kids now because they have asked for their chicken nuggets about 100 times. One has taken a shit in his diaper and smells like rotten zombies. And one is whining because I won't let him color with markers.
They are still the most adorable kids ever tho.

So I feel happy now because I haven't blogged in a while, and I should definately earn my brownies for this.
yay me! boo you. I'm outie til next time bitches :) <---LAME.