EVEN THOUGH....sometimes..
I doubt. I worry. I panic. I'm jealous. I'm scared. I'm insecure. I'm discouraged. I'm bothered. I'm apprehensive. I'm distressed. I'm fretful...I'm human.
But he takes my hand and temporarily erases the negativity as he's in my presence and fills my mind, heart, and soul with a profound, tender, yet intense feeling. This feeling is LOVE. PURE LOVE. Forgetting I had doubts. Forgetting I worried if he loved me back. Forgetting that I panicked I'd never see him again. Forgetting the jealousy of the meaningless creatures around....
I forgot I was scared to even love again. I forgot about all my insecurities. I forgot I was discouraged and again had hope. I was no longer bothered by my feelings and wanted to be bothered. I was no longer apprehensive but anxious for our next move. My distress and fret left and I began to feel free. I was no longer a human being. <--- To be stopped. I was a human being... <--- to keep being. I was being in love. Being his love. Being because he made me be. He made me free.
I LOVE you, Julian Dixon.
<3 Rae
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